Eva Alordiah Opens Up On How She Battled Depression After Going Broke 3 Years Ago

Rapper, Eva Alordiah has taken to social media to open up on how she battled depression after going broke 3 years ago, and eventually bounced back.

Eva made a lengthy post on Twitter, where she revealed the juncture she began communing with her inner mind in order to identify herself, learning about ego and the need to prove to herself that she would be able to live without depending on music or what she was known for (rapping).

”3 years ago I was broke, depressed and pissed off with my existence. I stood in front of my mirror one day and broke down crying.

I felt like I was living a lie —I no longer knew who I was & I was going through one of the most painful Ego deaths I had ever experienced..

”I remember yelling at God saying —“What the fuck! What the fuck do you want me to do. Show yourself dammeeet!” —-

I think about it now..

Stupid.

”Talented, Broke, Depressed and tired of Life. Not a good combination to have.

Through many days of journaling & communing with myself, I began to learn about IDENTITY and the Ego. And how I had become Identified with what I did (Rapper).

”It was tough for me to be anything else but that, and that pissed me off even more. I wanted to be done with it.

So I said “Fck it! Whatever happens will happen, I just want to be a human being..”

”I needed to prove to myself that I good earn a living without fame, music or whatever else I was identified by.

And that was how my Journey began.

”In 2020 I focused on Learning How to earn money online— I became an active content creator, started a new IG page & shared my knowledge freely.

Then I created Courses & monetized the shit out of my Knowledge. And in the middle of the Pandemic I built http://kobocourse.com Left pointing backhand index.

You’ll never understand what it feels like for me to be able to say —“I know how to earn money without needing to be a music artiste”

To have a business that pays me without stress, to know that I can always get paid— to feel valuable and worthy..

”You’ll never understand

Within 9 months I had earned almost N17,000,000 on IG without stress — in the middle of that win, one mosquito asked me to come perform at a show for N100,000

”You’ll never know the Joy I felt when I said, “No thank you,” and hung up the phone without remorse.

It’s freedom!!

”It’s nice to know that I can still record music when I want, how I want, ‘If’ I want. To have been dependent on my music for survival was also to throw away my Love for the Art.

Today I’m learning how to Rap again, how to listen to music, how to enjoy it without pressure

”I don’t care about Fame or having all the money in the world— all I know is, being able to tell your parents, “Don’t worry, I’ll pay for it” — is a different kind of Level up!…”

Source: The African Media

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